Janelle Brown simply spent her first Thanksgiving with out her son, Garrison.
However he was by no means removed from her thoughts.
As Sister Wives followers sadly know at this level, Garrison took his personal life this previous March on the younger age of 25, having been discovered on the time in his Arizona dwelling by his brother, Gabe.
Authorities then confirmed that Garrison died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound.
Quick ahead to November 29 and Janelle making it clear through Instagram simply how a lot she was considering of Garrison amid a family-oriented event.
“First of the ‘big’ holidays without you sweetheart,” the 55-year previous wrote alongside a childhood photograph of her son.
“All of us gathered in NC to have fun collectively and stored your photograph shut by. We laughed about your foolish humorousness and instructed so many tales honoring you.
“We ate, played games and enjoyed each other’s company. Everyone is returning home now and normal life resumes tomorrow. But I feel you close by.”
We actually can not think about the ache Janelle will need to have been experiencing on Thanksgiving — or the ache she experiences on a regular basis, actually.
Within the months since Garrison handed away, Janelle has been spending a variety of time in North Carolina with daughter Madison Brush, son-in-law Caleb Brush and their youngsters.
The mom of six even bought a plot of land on the East Coast for $289,000, the place she is constructing Taeda Farms along with her family members.
Late final month, Brown additionally introduced a enjoyable new enterprise enterprise.
Chatting with Individuals journal in September, Janelle delved into the horrible day she discovered Garrison was gone… together with all he was going by means of up till that horrible second.
“We just had no idea that he was in that place,” Janelle instructed Individuals again then, including that “substance abuse” probably performed a job in his frame of mind previous to his demise. “But he didn’t ever express any kind of extreme sad feelings.”
Based on the official post-mortem report, Garrison had a VERY excessive blood-alcohol stage upon committing suicide.
His roommates additionally instructed native police that he had been consuming closely round this time.
In a textual content message the evening earlier than he died, Garrison did admit to suicidal tendencies… which prompted Janelle to ask son Gabe to go examine on his brother.
Gabe did so, and got here throughout his physique.
“We actually were having conversations. He had all the resources that he could have needed,” the Sister Wives star mentioned this fall about her son’s psychological state. “This was just such a shock. We just never expected this.”
Ultimately, Brown is clearly crestfallen.
But she doesn’t know what she may have performed to keep away from this tragedy, both.
“It just wasn’t for lack of love or lack of anything,” she beforehand mentioned.
“And all I can do is think… we always ask ourselves could we have done something more, but I don’t know,” she provides. “I think that’s a grief trap because I think, ultimately, everybody is responsible for their own actions and their own decisions. But we did everything.”